Debugging Life

Yesterday was a crazy day at work. Honestly, I am not able to comprehend how the time at office passes by. It's a lot of things to learn. And it is worth it when Ryan tells that he likes the dashboards and insights. Also, when I was coming home from the office, it started to rain all of a sudden. Thing to be noted is that I am used to sudden rains, because uhhh you know, Boston. But, it never rained like cats and dogs, or I shall rephrase it as - I never saw it rain like cats and dogs in the states. But yesterday it did. Maybe due to vicinity with the ocean. And it reminded me of the rainy mornings in Medicaps. How we all used to go to the 'first year' block for our R programming lectures. The whole environment used to be grey-ish. No sunlight. And then everyone used to sit together and just talk throughout the lecture. Well, primarily because who the hell wants to study on rainy days even if we sit inside?! And after that lecture, a couple of more in the CS block. And then...

Today is Friday, and I opted to work from home. So, its a bit relaxed for me. Or is it? Does it happen to you that whenever you're having ample of time in your hand, you don't necessarily want to make it ultra productive, but you don't want to waste it either..? (Today is one such day, so in order to avoid anxiety, I have to work today... maybe study something or listen to a good podcast to say the least) Also, even though I have said this earlier, but I am obsessing over people who have pursued an MBA after their MS. The Fuqua passouts, Booth passouts, Haas passouts, Harvard BS, Wharton, Sloan, Tuck, Kellogg, Ross passouts.... maaaaannnn I soooo want to join these schools. These schools sculpt global corporate sharks, young turks leading projects of millions and billions!! What else? In Portland, I am spending most of my days in silence. Literally not speaking a word to anybody for 15-18 hours straight... Strangely, I like this. Just me, my thoughts, books, internet, food ...

So, I came home from office some 15 minutes ago. And today I want to vent myself here... First and the foremost thing is time. I want atleast 3-4 hours more to my day. I want to accomplish a lot in one day, which when accumulated over months will reward me... But the day is limited to 24 hours. I'm waking at 5-5:15-ish everyday. Sleeping at 11-12. But can't make the most out of it... Today after writing this blog, I want to study. I am so tired, but I've found a new rule in my life -  "Normal din me 10 kilometer daudne ka... aur agar barf pade toh 20 kilometer!!!" I want to train my mind from "Yes & No" to "Yes & Hell Yes"... I want to become a workhorse, which I'm in the process of. Apart from that, I'll get my salary in account in 5 days. Then I'll donate some rupees to feed children.. Well, that is the plan in the long run - philanthropy, isn't it?  Also, I am thinking a lot more about future these days. A lot of peop...

 So, I'm writing about my first day of Job after coming home from third day. Well, because its a good job which apparently keeps me busy. And also, I just come home, eat food and literally doze off.   Basically, I have to work on a product with a team, where I'll spend my time on analytics and machine learning stuff. I am in the core business team of the product, where I'm working directly with Maxime (Dartmouth MBA) and Swapnil (MIT MBA) who are the AVP and VP of my company's behavioral health division. Also, other teammates Ryan, David and Clare are also veterans and I'm the only intern.  So, its a bit intimidating (in a good way) and challenging. I will learn a lot. Also, Swapnil is VERY humble. I thought she'd be a bossy lady with whom I'd have a tough time... but is not. She is soooo soooo humble and I haven't seen her resting a single minute. She is just working all the time. I aspire to be a workaholic like her in the coming years...  And Maxime. ...

Today is a very hot day in Portland. Or humid atleast. Well, maybe because my house is just 2 minute walk away from the atlantic ocean (self aggrandizing bastard)... So yeah, I thought of watching some bollywood movies on this hot-calm-typical summer day. So I watched Monsoon Wedding and Mr & Mrs Iyer. Now, i wont talk about Monsoon Wedding. Because (a) it is a well known and good movie (b) because the latter one is underrated and not heard by the masses. Mr and Mrs Iyer is a movie which can't be classified into a specific genre. By the name it might sound that its a light hearted comedy movie (and also by the cast - Rahul Bose and Konkana Sen). But the movie is an emotional roller coaster, which makes you think about the idea of romance along with communalism and idiotic complex systems created by the society. I am writing my thoughts about the movie without revealing a single plot detail so that when you watch the movie, it remains fresh. But yes, it made me wonder that no wo...

If you have ever read about blackholes, you might have come across the term 'singluarity' at some point. Well, I am about to enter that phase of my life now. At this moment, physicists are still trying to find out what exactly happens after that point. Same is with me. I am standing at the verge of six months which will decide the entire course of my career. Although I'll be happy with my coop like others, I want to make the best use of these six months. This place will either help me dig my head in books and courses all the way, or just lay on the bed on weekends... this room... my place... will be my battlefield. Also, I am in suburbs for six months. Here I am experiencing the 'true' culture of America. The introverted side of the USA, which isn't portrayed in movies. Even the sound of sneezing touches the ears of the man moving his lawn 2 houses down the lane. You can hear birds chirping 24*7, sound of rustling leaves when the wind blows, and occasional thuds...

Again, I am writing this from library. Seems like a ritual, which is about to break. Actually, today is Thursday and I am moving to portland the day after tomorrow. So, I'll miss studying in library for the next six months. For some unknown reasons, I am feeling this sudden urge to study and code. Which is very rare because I feel like this only for a day or two in a couple of months; but it's been almost two weeks that i've been into books and udacity at a stretch... at this rate i'm sure i can crack faang, mckinsey or atleast land a good job for the time being. Its by the end of my first stretch in boston that i have realized how awesome northeastern university is!! i cant wait to come here again in january and become an all round nerd.. i wish this 'urge' to study stays with me in portland as well... also, yesterday was the last time i cooked for my roommates.. and i'm not even kidding... the sabzi turned out to be awesome..!! now this might not be a big ...