Debugging Life

Grief is something that fascinates me every now and then. According to me, this is the strongest of all emotions. Although it seems hard to bear, it isn't. The thing is, humans experience grief and sadness after some loss or pain, which makes them associate grief with negativity. But if we introspect, grief is same as happiness. And in my opinion, even better than it. When a person is happy, he becomes overconfident and careless. He neglects the reality and lives in a cloud. Whereas, grief makes a person stay grounded. It makes the situation clear and puts the truth in front of eyes. It is a good emotion, just not supported by masses. If we think rationally, humans are driven by emotions. They are compelled to buy certain things or make moves in emotional flow. You won't buy someone gifts while being in a neutral mood. While buying things, we are happy. We don't burst crackers on Diwali out of the blue.. there's happiness associated with it. You see, we're...

I am very much fascinated by this concept of 'Ubermensch' by Nietzsche. Every human must try to live a life meant to meet our higher intelligence. That's what I think. There are several things that Ubermensch should have like: defying herd mentality, having self defined morals and solitude.   I'm trying to follow higher path. But this made me think about a lot of things. Like, I dont want to demean anybody, but 95% of men in our society, no matter where they're sitting professionally ultimately have the goal of chasing a girl. (I agree its biologically justifiable)... But why is it so? Life is much more than this. I believe that okay, go after them, but atleast have some righteous moral grounds! I had a conflict with a female I know.. I questioned the authority of one guy and I was accused of being manipulative.. Every guy knows the way one tries to woo somebody. This is universal truth... And its okay for him to do whatever he want... But this made me ques...

Last week, Northeastern University accepted me as their incoming Masters student. My major will be Data Analytics Engineering. This was my dream university after UIUC. However, I am satisfied with this too (maybe I'll finalize it). I mean, I'm sure I'll end up with a grand internship by the end of two years of my MS. What could be more fun?! I'll have the perfect reason to start my career and company in India. I am extremely grateful to the almighty for this. Today while sitting by the window, I saw the grand children of aunty living on rent. They were extremely happy even though they're financially weaker than an average Indian family. I thought a lot on happiness this time and here's what I ended up with: Happiness, according to me, is a choice. You can be happy after having two chapatis and can be sad even after dining at a five star hotel. It is a mindset. This rat race is unnecessary for being happy and satisfied. Still, everyone around me is indulg...

World is celebrating 'valentines week'. The week of love. Its gooood! People have something to distract themselves from this cruel world and spend some time with 'beloved'. This made me think about 'love' and here's what i came up with. Love is something that has been largely misinterpreted by people out there. It is only being restricted to physical attraction and infatuation. The 'couple goals' are the people who seem beautiful to us on instagram, or those who show their love publicly, or if a boy decorates a table in a cafe etc.. Well, what i think is: it is waaaayyy beyond this. It is when you just feel a deeper level of connection with someone. Even if you go days without any form of talking or connection, you are assured that no matter what, nothing can set you apart from him/her. It is not the butterflies in stomach, but a sense of calmness when you're with them. It is beyond materialism. It is level of understanding, compatibility,...

Yowza! Again documenting my thought process at the age of 21 (yk, just in case I come and look back at this after years, I can compare my maturity level lol). So, as of now I've applied for my Masters in US and waiting for decisions. So damn excited!! JUMP TO SUBHEADING TO SKIP BS xD I did want to apply to 9 universities, out of which I finally did in 4. I wanted to go to UIUC (world top 10 in CS!) but I was more inclined to NEU or CSUF. Rutgers-New Jersey, Northeastern University-Boston, CSU Fullerton and Uni of Connecticut were the final four. I've read quite a few books and now I question the purpose of our existence. Like, why at the first place, did the big bang happen and we exist.?? Isn't all this a simulation (because, imo our thinking capacity is restricted to after big bang phenomenon).. And other stuff like that (quantum physics and spiritual nerd :P). Secondly, I've started paying regular visit to Rokadiya Hanuman Temple and recite chalisa twice (one f...

Today I will observe my breath for the whole day and will practice yogic breathing technique. Its been 1 hour and I can feel a different relaxation and whole new level of concentration right from the beginning. I will research on the internet about more techniques and implement it. In addition to this, I have started reading another book influenced by eastern philosophy - Finding our Lost Happiness.  I am feeling very good right now and I suggest you to practice yogic breathing throughout the day. (image source: google) Scientific explanation is that it helps in alpha, delta and theta wave in brain and also produces some neural growth factor in saliva (this is a Ted talk by Sundar Balsubramaniam). Medical science has proof of this art discovered thousands of years ago by vedic sages. I am thankful to everyone and this is a good life. Till the next time SM

I went through some books in last week namely 'Beyond life and death', 'Spiritual Yoga' and 'Into the wild'. First two books were written by eastern philospher Srila Prabhupad and the last one was written by an American adventurer and writer John Krauker. I can see clear corelation between the ideologies that happiness is completely independent of materialistic pleasures. Not only this, celibacy, minimalism and the concept of isolation is necessary to experience deeper understanding about life. Tldr; what's the point of money. Let's say you have 1 billion billion dollars. Will you still be happy? No. Money is necessary to a point where we can earn two meals and have clothes and shelter. True happiness lies in self satisfaction, mother nature, self introspection and exploring our consciousness by meditation. This is not depressing, but I agree to some of views of ISKCON that materialism is leading human life to nowhere. And yes, consciousness is one d...